September Self, Preston Ave, Lexington, KY

September has been a month of transition. The season's literally and figuratively changing. (How poetic of me to notice this similarity?) My soulmate/ roommate moved from the beloved apartment to pursue dreams in France. I let everyone know around town that I'd be shortly be leaving Lexington, to also move to France. A great friend moved to LA. Two of my other bests are preparing to move from Lexington to Antarctica. I have red hair instead of blonde. I was sick most of the month. I listened to less Drake and more folksy tunes. I've been incorporating meat again back into my diet. I got rid of a bunch of my wardrobe and am continuing to pare down my collection of stuff.

Most importantly though, I've been living alone the month of September in my gorgeous, Preston Ave apartment. I've lived here for 3 years and 2 months and have had 4 different roommates during that time. I'm in love with this space. It's a mid-century modern dreamland. It's only downhill from here in terms of living situations. I will never be in such a perfect space, all factors considered. The light comes through this apartment beautifully, usually showing up in hues of orange. In these pictures below, I had woken from various modes of slumber or just gotten home and wanted to capture these moments of natural or electric brilliance with my camera. I put myself in them in the clothing that I had been lounging in, so please forgive the scandalous attire.

There's a Quebecois song called "Retour à Vega" by the Stills. I've been listening to it a lot lately, and a line constantly sticks with me: "Je suis toute à la fois l'acteur et le décor" = I am both actor and decoration. In other words, I am both the participant and the observer. This is true in many respects for this series: I am the photographed (l'acteur) and the photographer (the observer). I am an active participant in this stage of an apartment that will soon be replaced by another actor, but also I feel part of this apartment. I am the decor. This apartment is me.

I don't own much in this apartment; the beautiful mid-century modern furniture belongs to my landlord. However, some favorites of what I do own are included in this series: my Tennessee Valley Authority Phospate bag, my old school maps (literally old school),  my world globe, and a book by a German photographer.

While photographing, I used my phone with the remote shooting feature to control the camera. I set my camera to manual, and I was able to adjust the ISO, the TV and the AV via this setting.  You'll notice some variation in light with these photos as a result of the quick change in natural light, my manual manipulation of the camera settings, and also a few edits. However, I tried to keep these photos as unedited as possible. Je suis toute à la fois l'acteur et le décor. Voilà.